So i know that i’m a little late on here and possibly none of you will read this. but here goes…

It is no ones fault what happened to me. It was a freak accident. Pretty sure only i could pull off something that dumb. And im not going to sit here and lie, it sucks. I screwed up a lot of my summer. and sometimes i get upset thinking about how i wont be normal again for a while, and how i dont get to do the things that everyone else does. buttttt at the same time, im healing at a crazy rate. Ill be back to normal in no time. things could have ended much worse for me than they did, i can walk and move, and in a few months ill be completely back to normal again. so oh well, it messed with one summer. but ill have plenty more after this one to enjoy. And im happy that it was me and not someone else. I wouldnt want any of you to miss out on your summers either and if anyone was going to id rather it be me. I can handle this, its no big deal. Knowing that anyone puts the blame on themselves makes me sad because it was no ones fault but my own. No one drug me over to the spillway. I chose to just like everyone. And just like everyone i didnt think it was a big deal. Thats no one elses fault. I made decisions, yes other peoples actions influenced them but thats not the reason that i fell. I fell because im clumsy and i slipped, simple as that. I know it was a scary day for everyone and it plays through my head a lot too. I went back there the other day to show my family where i slipped and stuff and i completely saw it all happen again and it was crazy, but being there isnt scary because i know that it was just one of those things. We werent being crazy. maybe then we would all have a reason to feel the blame, but we were just being teenagers and stuff happens. Also, I would like to apologize to hunter for calling your name. if i had been thinkng at all i would never have done that, but it was just a moment of terror and that was my first reaction. I never meant to put that much pressure on you. there was absolutely nothing that you could have done, and had you tried you would have just been riding down with me. like i said it was just a moment of terror and calling for help was the first thing that seemed logical. I dont want anyone to feel bad for me, or wish that it was them and not me, or feel like they are the ones to blame. Im doing very well considering, and had it been anyone else they may not have been so lucky. Ive been blessed with the amount of support that ive gotten from everyone. I love you all and hope you get the chance to see this. Life isnt always fair, but this is nothing compared to what could have happened. In a few weeks ill be able to move aroung like i used to and w’ll just make up for lost time then:) hopefully you all are ready?:)